living like it's the weekend.

I just dont have enough energy to explain. Here I go!

It sucks too, because he doesn’t understand that he isn’t there for me. Within these two horrible days I’ve been having, he hasn’t been present. I check up on him Amit just so I don’t miss anything. I mean, we live at a distance. I can’t walk to his house and ask him face to face “How was your day?” He hardly does anything so I’m really not missing out. much at least. I’m always occupied during the day unless I have the day off. All I’m saying is why doesn’t his mind say “Oh, I haven’t talked to my girlfriend all day, let me call her” He doesn’t do that. he’ll wait for me to call. It didn’t bother mebas much before but damn. C’mon kid. I know he’s going to see this and get pissed but whatever. I seriously had a mental breakdown earlier (not because of him or anything) but I called multiple times and he was no where to be found. who leaves there cell phone at home unless quickly leaving within an emergency? ! C’mon, I know the game I’ve played it and succeeded everytime. Yet, this isn’t the first time. My whole feeling upon this now is I feel like it’s an ongoing obstacle. Its bad enough we don’t live in the same city, all of arguing is for the birds, I just can’t deal with it. I might leave. I just might, of course I don’t want to, but there is no progress. At all.